[her mouth quirks slightly at 'lady.' she understands what he's trying to say, but it's funny, because lady does help her to be...herself, and not alayne stone. she bows her head gracefully at the compliment.]
I want to be good, and kind, and make my father proud. But the truth is, I can be terrible too. I helped a terrible man. He made certain I had no other choice, but--I told you that I liked being Alayne Stone. I could have gone on like that for years, if I hadn't come here. And he wanted to make me like him, I know that now. I think I knew it all along. He wanted a little doll that looked like my mother to play his games with him. Terrible games, that cost people their lives--that cost my mother and father and brother their lives, in the end. I don't only want to be good, I want to be better than him. I want to be better than all of them, because otherwise they will have beaten me. They don't want me to be a Stark of Winterfell, and good and kind and better loved than them, and I can't think of a better revenge than being what they don't want me to be.
[and she can't think of anything worse than becoming like them. but perhaps that's too harsh a sentiment when he's clearly struggling with whatever he's done in the past.]
[ He knows he definitely hasn't changed that much when his gut reaction to her own story makes him want to find whoever tried to make her into such a thing and make them eat their own teeth.
He nods, agreeing that she's chosen the right path. He wishes he had thought the same way when it came to people like Danzo. ]
When you have no other choice, I don't think the actions you take define you. It's when you freely decide to hurt others, to kill them because you want to, that it truly darkens you. I don't see that in you.
[sansa wants to kill littlefinger, too. she plans on it, even. she knows what she'll do if he comes here, and she knows what she'll do if she goes home. he's simply too dangerous to be allowed to exist. some people are. she doesn't think sandor clegane is, and she doesn't think sasuke is either.]
You're right. It's what we do when we have a choice. But Littlefinger was very good at getting people to choose to do what he wanted. That's what made him dangerous, and Lady Margaery too.
It wasn't only that she was kind to me. My parents were kind, and they were killed. It's that I can see now how she does what Cersei and Littlefinger do to beat them at their own stupid game. You don't have to choose between being strong, and being kind. I can use what I learned from what was done to me to help people, and perhaps some good can come of it.
[ He's quiet as he lets himself reflect on her words, a hint of a smile on his face at the end of them. ]
You sound like Sakura.
[ That is so obviously a compliment. Sakura would probably argue she hadn't suffered nearly as much as either of them, but Sasuke doesn't know that that's true. ]
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I want to be good, and kind, and make my father proud. But the truth is, I can be terrible too. I helped a terrible man. He made certain I had no other choice, but--I told you that I liked being Alayne Stone. I could have gone on like that for years, if I hadn't come here. And he wanted to make me like him, I know that now. I think I knew it all along. He wanted a little doll that looked like my mother to play his games with him. Terrible games, that cost people their lives--that cost my mother and father and brother their lives, in the end. I don't only want to be good, I want to be better than him. I want to be better than all of them, because otherwise they will have beaten me. They don't want me to be a Stark of Winterfell, and good and kind and better loved than them, and I can't think of a better revenge than being what they don't want me to be.
[and she can't think of anything worse than becoming like them. but perhaps that's too harsh a sentiment when he's clearly struggling with whatever he's done in the past.]
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He nods, agreeing that she's chosen the right path. He wishes he had thought the same way when it came to people like Danzo. ]
When you have no other choice, I don't think the actions you take define you. It's when you freely decide to hurt others, to kill them because you want to, that it truly darkens you. I don't see that in you.
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You're right. It's what we do when we have a choice. But Littlefinger was very good at getting people to choose to do what he wanted. That's what made him dangerous, and Lady Margaery too.
It wasn't only that she was kind to me. My parents were kind, and they were killed. It's that I can see now how she does what Cersei and Littlefinger do to beat them at their own stupid game. You don't have to choose between being strong, and being kind. I can use what I learned from what was done to me to help people, and perhaps some good can come of it.
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You sound like Sakura.
[ That is so obviously a compliment. Sakura would probably argue she hadn't suffered nearly as much as either of them, but Sasuke doesn't know that that's true. ]
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Thank you!
[she wonders how sakura would have done in king's landing. she wonders if sakura ever ended up punching the cobra kai man.]
I should like to be half as good as helping people as she is.
[she wants to learn to do what sakura does, but at the same time the thought of it is exhausting.]
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Just make sure you're better about taking care of yourself, too. She lacks that skill most of the time.